My main reason for posting today is because it is OCD awareness week. And OCD does need awareness, doesn't it? I think I've read somewhere on about every OCD blog I've read about people's frustrations with how casually the words "I'm so OCD", can be thrown around. So, I thought it would be interesting, because of OCD awareness week, to just point out what real OCD is. These are just a few of the many examples I could give, things that I have done because of OCD. Thankfully some of these items are from a long time ago, but there always contamination issues that present themselves for me every day. So here is what real OCD is:
--When you don't eat at restaurants because you don't want to use the silverware/glasses that other people use
--When you haven't had any type of physical relationship with your husband for over 3 years due to fears of becoming "contaminated" by him
--When you wash your hands before AND after using the restroom
--When you, in a sense, make your own child fearful of touching her dad because you are always talking about how dirty he is. You won't let your child hug her dad.
--When you take back clothes to the store because the cashier licked their finger before they touched your clothes and put them in the bag to take home
--When you go to a sandwich shop and the person assembling the sandwiches (with gloves on) pushes something on the cash register screen, and goes back to making the food, and you end up leaving and making an excuse that you forgot your money in the car
--When you start to avoid everything around you. Everything and everyone. When you start to avoid these things in life, that is the beginning of your spiral deep down into OCD. I really believe that.
Well, the truth is that I could go on and on. Real OCD is life affecting, certainly. It affects the sufferer and everyone around them. I thank God that I have come as far as I have in my treatment over the last year. Self guided treatment that has changed my life significantly. I have gone from rock bottom extreme OCD to probably moderate levels at this point. And that is something to celebrate. I still have a long way to go, but every day I get closer.
The struggle with OCD is real. Through this struggle, I have developed a true passion for learning about the disorder. It is evident how much awareness this disorder truly needs. 1 in 40 Americans have OCD. That is very significant. If you are struggling with OCD, I urge you to find help. For many people, it truly does take them hitting rock bottom to realize that they can't live this way any longer. And you don't have to live like this any longer. When you make the decision to not let OCD control you, it is going to be a process. But as you grow healthier fighting against this, you are taking your life back from this disorder. Each and every day it gets better. I genuinely feel for every one of you that has Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. A brain based, neuropsychological disorder. Real OCD. Not quirks, not a personality character. You are brave, courageous people. One of the really cool things about blogger is that you can see what keywords people are searching to bring you to your page or post. My heart breaks at most of the phrases that are used to bring people here. There is a lot of suffering with this disorder, I am certain of that. I know that first hand too.
I love to hear from my readers, so if you're reading this please leave a comment for me and let me know what real OCD is for you. Let's keep drawing awareness to this disease.